I also want to let you all know.. this isn’t my first attempt of quitting .. I’ve been trying for the past ten years.. seriously !!!
I know it’s hard and back then I didn’t have much to lose but today I do..
I started to think, what if my wife finds out .. just imagine that .. you would be lying if you think you will be ok and just move on..
Then I ran into some hobbyists at bars and hearing their personal stories and how their life is in shambles and I thought damn.. I don’t want that to be me and I have it good..
Trust me gents, I had some mind blowing experiences and some terrible ones and I don’t judge anyone who enjoys this hobby because it’s really something else .. but if you are in my situation where you have a SO and a lot to lose .. really think about it.. you are dodging a bullet right now..
Good luck to those who are trying and I appreciate the support and PMs I got from a few of you.
not only do I completely get everything you say, I have all of the things to lose that you do, and worry about it all the time. Sometimes I get little panic attacks about things like "what if my car breaks down someplace where I cant explain to the wife why I was there?", Also, I have had a couple scares over the years, once where LE came into a place while I was in session and once where I was actually pulled over leaving a motel. Both episodes are good stories, maybe for another thread, but they ended ok, LE isnt typically interested in the men unless there are other things involved like drugs, guns or other crimes, or if its street walkers, but man, did I need a clean pair of undies when I got home!!
I have quit many times but in the end, I just love the look and feel of a pretty lady, its one of the greatest pleasures of the only life you'll ever get.
Quitting is the right decision and if you can do it, you are a much better man than I am.