I guess this is the only place where I can vent since only one friend would semi-understand and everyone here gets it. So yeah, I almost forgot that these girls we meet are looking to make money and nothing more. I've been mongering for 16 years, lost my virginity to a 3 way of hookers when I was a teen. I had an 8 year break when I was in a serious relationship which turned into marriage. Now that that's been over for a year I've been back. One of the J girls I fucked I ended up befriending on social and we've been chatting for a bit now. She opened up to me and while she was home we got closer but who knows maybe she shows everyone her personal life after she yells "Iku!"
In the past I kept this strictly sexual and nothing more, no feelings or shit like that. Purely transactional. Which fucked up my real relationships over the years. Just wanted to fuck, no holding hands with girls and they'd be ok with it til they fell in love with me. Even back in the day, I had more fun fucking hookers over normal girls, gave me a rush. Although I did date a stripper senior year in college so that was fun.
For some reason this one girl got me and the way she looked at me so I went with it. We talked about meeting outside of the room semi soon. But I think she came to her senses that she needs to make money and doesn't want to get in trouble so she doesn't think we can meet which made me realize what the fuck am I thinking. Time for me to get out of my fantasy which would inevitably lead nowhere and I should just be happy fucking her when she comes into town. Plus there's definitely other girls I'd want to fuck too at the aamps and outside. Now that I'm single again, I feel like the energizer bunny.
Also, every time I leave these spots I guess girls sense I just had sex or I'm more confident and I get girls numbers. That happen to any of ya'll too?
Rant over...
My friend just told me one thing she wrote to me in Japanese which didn't translate well... she did pick a date to meet but then changed her mind... bitch. lol
In the past I kept this strictly sexual and nothing more, no feelings or shit like that. Purely transactional. Which fucked up my real relationships over the years. Just wanted to fuck, no holding hands with girls and they'd be ok with it til they fell in love with me. Even back in the day, I had more fun fucking hookers over normal girls, gave me a rush. Although I did date a stripper senior year in college so that was fun.
For some reason this one girl got me and the way she looked at me so I went with it. We talked about meeting outside of the room semi soon. But I think she came to her senses that she needs to make money and doesn't want to get in trouble so she doesn't think we can meet which made me realize what the fuck am I thinking. Time for me to get out of my fantasy which would inevitably lead nowhere and I should just be happy fucking her when she comes into town. Plus there's definitely other girls I'd want to fuck too at the aamps and outside. Now that I'm single again, I feel like the energizer bunny.
Also, every time I leave these spots I guess girls sense I just had sex or I'm more confident and I get girls numbers. That happen to any of ya'll too?
Rant over...
My friend just told me one thing she wrote to me in Japanese which didn't translate well... she did pick a date to meet but then changed her mind... bitch. lol