this hobby isnt your problem.
Id suggest you have a issue with guilt, addiction, and possibly lack of meaning (purpose).
Guilt: Needlessly feeling guilty about things you enjoy.
Addiction: probably you are engaging with this in an addictive manner, aka, if you stopped acting in an addictive way, it wouldn't be a problem.
Purpose: If you have meaningful relationships, are healthy, workout regularly, do things in nature, enjoy your work and social life, you wont use this hobby as a crutch.
Id suggest you have a issue with guilt, addiction, and possibly lack of meaning (purpose).
Guilt: Needlessly feeling guilty about things you enjoy.
Addiction: probably you are engaging with this in an addictive manner, aka, if you stopped acting in an addictive way, it wouldn't be a problem.
Purpose: If you have meaningful relationships, are healthy, workout regularly, do things in nature, enjoy your work and social life, you wont use this hobby as a crutch.