Embarrassed to Ask for this Kind of Recommendation (hear me out)

[angryman82]

Depression is a tough one and with the Covid ramping up again only more people will suffer from it. There are some great medications out there that can really help you. Also mentioned was perhaps a casual non sexual massage . While getting massaged try to talk to the masseuse , frequently complimenting her . At the completion of the service both you and her should feel better. Good Luck !

Yeah...that's true...there seems to be a catch 22 or sorts where I do feel that lack of sensual intimacy too, this creating some internal turmoil for me

 

[angryman82]

this can be a very dangerous area . if you become attached to a particular girl you can experience high degrees of jealousy or bipolar type fantasies and spend 1000 a week on a girl which she will most likely take advantage of your situation , you could start stalking at night seeing how many guys are going in and developing all types of scenarios of what your girl is doing inside . keep away and go for professional help asap . she is not going to help ! if its 2am and you become uncomfortable go to the emergency room . they are not looking for clients they will help you on the spot . best of luck .
firr

Hmm that's true. Good call. It didn't cross my mind. It should've. And I'm more of the jealous type due to my first two relationships leaving me felt hurt and backstabbed wondering how come if I know for sure I was a good guy

 

[Melmouth]

Try CNJ Jenny msg- everyone says she is very sweet - tell her you have had a tough time and need some TLC.

 

[rufus7857]

Speaking of which I have an appt tomorrow. Thanks for chipping in bro

Lets us know how it works out. I too suffer from some of the similar issues and have been looking at these.

 

[angryman82]

Lets us know how it works out. I too suffer from some of the similar issues and have been looking at these.

Roger that. I've had a few sessions actually before. It's been like a month almost since my last one (got Covid which took me out two weeks)

It felt...nice, actually. Chemistry matters. Not the right website by any means for me to say this but...it felt kinda nice not having in the back of my mind "is she gonna make a pass at me? Are they gonna do that hand through the butt crack and by my sack move to tease? If I go hard as a rock can I just do a DIY with no pressure of me having 8 minutes to hurry?"

 

[jsmither]

Sorry to hear of your situation and this past year has been rough on a lot of people. Professional help might be better suited before searching for comfort. The wrong amp girl can do more damage , eat you alive and push you over the edge. Guys use a million different lines to therapists so if you tried telling them your situation , they might just think it's another line. But at the same time you never know but when your talking about one's life , it can be a big risk to take . If this is a route you wana take , i would say go with a indy with lesser traffic and this way possible not be rushed and can possible connect a little better . With limited amps , you might just be part of the rush and can even worsen your mentality or confidence

That's some solid advice right there

 

[chip skylark]

Angryman82, I wish you good luck and hope you find peace. There's some real good advice in this thread that can help you and anyone else going through rough patches. Everything will be okay. I would suggest to seek some professional help if you can.

Cheers and happy new year

 

[Prestomeco]

I am truly sorry you are going through this pain. I don't hobby often, partly due to a similar aversion to cold impersonal experiences. As such, I'd like to recommend Isabelle Rose, who advertises on BestGFE. She's more of an escort but gives a great back rub too. Best of all, she's warm, very touch-oriented, generous of heart, and communicative. On the downside, Izzy is older and not the model type. She's not ugly but not gorgeous either, but I tend to value personality and skills over appearance (within limits). I may be prejudiced so it might be good to check out a few more reviews. Whatever you do, best of luck to you.

Been mulling over this and figured to post while there's an ounce of audacity...

I could make this a 12 paragraph 'dear diary' but I'll spare you that and preface with bullet points so you can get why I ask...

*diagnosed w/severe depression
*numerous hysteria meltdowns
*two antidepressants
*touch deprivation
*loneliness
*deaths
*racing thoughts including suicide
*self inflicted psych pain

(Yeah 2020 sucked)

...which leads me to ask...

in the central NJ area are there any amp places that you can recommend where you really felt legit 'tenderly nurtured' and *that aspect* superceded the ummm ..'the extra stuff' typically sought after on here?

just ...tired of a cold world...the 'single servingness' of things (Fight Club reference, yeah) ... looking for comfort but in a different way ...

I'm indifferent as to if 'extras' are a definite or not at all

 

[bchang]

I think you should get advice from your therapist, not people on this board. This feeling that your seeking is really temporary and you have to separate this fantasy world that us mongers live in with reality. If you go to the wrong woman, you may feel worse after you leave. I know that depression affects a lot of people and this hobby is by no means a way to treat an underlying issue. I sincerely wish you the best.

 

[Gentle Jim]

I think amps will only make your condition worse honestly. I would recommend a good therapist or some sort of spiritual guidance... try meditation, watch some alan watts videos, this is a good one

this is the best introduction to meditation i know of

good luck

I wonder if this guy ever had his cocked sucked? I think he is fucking around wasting too much time with this monkey Brain Bullshit!

 

[angryman82]

I think you should get advice from your therapist, not people on this board. This feeling that your seeking is really temporary and you have to separate this fantasy world that us mongers live in with reality. If you go to the wrong woman, you may feel worse after you leave. I know that depression affects a lot of people and this hobby is by no means a way to treat an underlying issue. I sincerely wish you the best.

You're right.

 

[angryman82]

I wonder if this guy ever had his cocked sucked? I think he is fucking around wasting too much time with this monkey Brain Bullshit!

I think he meant well. And I've heard a good audiobook from Alan Watts like two years ago that was great.

When I was on my personal development flow...(reading, journaling, meditating) ... I wasn't perfect ...still had some stuff (don't we all?) ...but wasn't anywhere close to rock bottom as I've been the past 6 months.

I got something worth thinking about from him and from you too.
I'm happy with how supportive you all have been. Wasn't expecting it.

I was kinda expecting to read
"Ha! You snowflake cuck beta male!" or some other trendy internet troll name calling.

 

[crankyankee]

I wonder if this guy ever had his cocked sucked? I think he is fucking around wasting too much time with this monkey Brain Bullshit!

I do need my cock sucked. Are you offering your services?

 

[crankyankee]

Bbbbbhjjj

I think he meant well. And I've heard a good audiobook from Alan Watts like two years ago that was great.

When I was on my personal development flow...(reading, journaling, meditating) ... I wasn't perfect ...still had some stuff (don't we all?) ...but wasn't anywhere close to rock bottom as I've been the past 6 months.

I got something worth thinking about from him and from you too.
I'm happy with how supportive you all have been. Wasn't expecting it.

I was kinda expecting to read
"Ha! You snowflake cuck beta male!" or some other trendy internet troll name calling.

to clear up any confusion. I did indeed mean well.

 

[Canvas5]

Seek for professional help my friend, no cuddle or GFE girl can help you feel better, that will only be temporary. You may have a chemical imbalance that is making you feel like that right now. Depression is no Joke, please see a professional and don't look for help here.

 

[Gentle Jim]

Seek for professional help my friend, no cuddle or GFE girl can help you feel better, that will only be temporary. You may have a chemical imbalance that is making you feel like that right now. Depression is no Joke, please see a professional and don't look for help here.

Canvas Sage Advice, one should definitely seek professional help for depression but getting your cock sucked and laying some pipe is a wonderful way to relax. As for me I will forgo the money Brain program.

 

[angryman82]

Seek for professional help my friend, no cuddle or GFE girl can help you feel better, that will only be temporary. You may have a chemical imbalance that is making you feel like that right now. Depression is no Joke, please see a professional and don't look for help here.

You're also right. There's this these moments at times where everything is collapsing "inside" and I just want to feel something. Even if it's a massage with "no extra" but warm smiles...or a butt love tap...hearing "honey (or baby)"...maybe a "oh wow you workout" gives some kinda of reassurance I can't describe..

But...yeah man. Junkies chase that hit (meth, heroine, cocaine, etc) ... I know deep down I don't want to be an AMP Junkie (not trying to diss ya'll here, everyone's been super cool with what I shared)

I'm hoping to find a good fit tomorrow to find my Dr. Phil

 

[Matching#s]

Finding an AMP girl that can satisfy your sexual needs can be a wonderful tonic, both physically and mentally. Iv'e had better sex with a few of them than Iv'e had in any real relationship Iv'e been in. It can be like a drug. There are the rare ones that can provide emotional gratification too and intimacy.

Of course how much is real only the provider really knows. But I enjoy hugging them and talking to them and just being kind to them, and they reciporicate. A few times I have felt like I was in love with certain ones that I liked a lot. But I try to maintaintain a safe didtance between fantasy and reality.
It sounds to me like you have deeper underlying problems. I would recommend talking to a professional.

 

[firr]

thinking that your getting close to these girls is a real danger to yourself . how many times have we left a place got in the car sipping water and saying , wow she really likes me . guess what ? she doesnt . true when they look at you in the door camera or you call to go they may feel a little relaxed knowing its you instead of some stinkpot off the street who just wants to have sex . nothing against sandy at star but being a regular there you know what i mean , she makes you feel like your special but if that bell or phone rings and your time is up you are out and the next mr special comes in . dont fall for it no matter what !

 

[Matching#s]

thinking that your getting close to these girls is a real danger to yourself . how many times have we left a place got in the car sipping water and saying , wow she really likes me . guess what ? she doesnt . true when they look at you in the door camera or you call to go they may feel a little relaxed knowing its you instead of some stinkpot off the street who just wants to have sex . nothing against sandy at star but being a regular there you know what i mean , she makes you feel like your special but if that bell or phone rings and your time is up you are out and the next mr special comes in . dont fall for it no matter what !

True, but it doesn't mean they can't like you as an individual. I think I emphasized that there is a line between whats real and not. I know the deal going in...I'm not a rookie. Iv'e been around a lot of women in my time. Iv'e been around plenty long enough to learn quite a lot, and still be young enough to participate fully in this hobby. I would consider myself well schooled in how to read them and understand their emotions and motives. It's intregal to the business I'm in.