I once was like that back around 2017. I got bored of mongering. The issue was caused by a provider I had seen. The problem was that she was just too damn good. I saw her more times than I could count. Unfortunately, she was one of those girls that came to USA for a few months then go back to China. It used to happen a lot before covid hit. Now, not anymore. She was young, beautiful as hell, perfect body for me and a good personality. My encounters with her felt like a real gf with intimate make outs and all. I know she also enjoyed being with me and it wasn't just acting. In fact, another reason I liked her was she never acted and was all real without any fake noises. In fact, one monger reviewed her as indifferent and standoffish. But in reality, she was just quiet but opened up when she knows you but still did enjoy her time with you. When I ate her out, she would cum quietly with small convulsions and I knew they were real. When she went back to China, which I knew was gonna happen, I realized she had ruined me. Other providers, even the one's I really liked just felt stale to me. I tried looking for girls that physically resembled her and even when I did find one, they were nothing compared to her. Time heals as they say. I started to lower my expectations from other providers and it seemed to work over time. I had tried taking a break but my little man started complaining.