What's up Brobear! Good question.
Put simply, I want to change. I want to be better.
I got into this hobby because I was this bum fuck of a guy. Fat as sin, lonelier than being the last member of a dying band, poorer than rock etc. You know the deal.
I changed all that and, by God's design, I ran into a pro that was the best. Like a virgin running into Madonna( or Katie Perry, to be more contemporary lol), WOW!
After experiencing the best form of this hobby, I knew the fantasy was over. No more thrill once you hit jackpot.
I am still young-ish, this hobby had its place. It'll be astronomically retarded to use this hobby as a substitute for life adventures/experiences.
Time to move on.