Yeah I understand trying to leave due to personal decison. One thing that helps me is actually buying myself some pretty expensive gift. The money last longer for instance you paid 140 for an hour, for about the same price you could've went shopping, now I tend to buy expensive name brand clothes and for that price you could buy a nice pair of pants or a sweater. That yes would have been a lot for a single piece, but it will make you feel good and get you compliments.