After reading this, I'm not sure if I someone gave me the fun mushrooms on my pizza today. If you do drugs, stop. If you don't do drugs, start. Other than that you can post it in the JERSEY PRIVATE FORUM. If you do see shadows, just hide under the damn bed and say you are guarding the listerine.
Edit: After reading your posting history, you might be going thru some shit. You are on vacation until after the holidays. Safe and Snug Harbors sir.