You have mentioned on other threads that your life "Beats the Hell" out of your alternate reality of being married to someone your age who drives you insane, plus has the added hammer of divorce. Doesn't sound so bad to see 2-3 hot girls per week if you can afford it. Are you unhappy because the hobby isn't satisfying? I understand you can't do this forever and when it stops, how do you think you will feel? I know this is deviating from the topic of this thread, but though to bring it up.
Yes it's not satisfying. Very fleeting.
I want a girl I can take to good restaurants, shows, weekend getaways and really nice vacations.
And not have to pay her thousands of dollars for it.
But it just isn't going to happen given my parameters.
I cannot do those things with some sagging, wrinkled middle aged bag. Just can't do it.
Even a middle aged woman who looks like Ainsley Earnhardt or equivalent is to old and wrinkled for me.
I'm fucked.
So I complain here from time to time, but I know I'll be doing p4p for the rest of my life.
Hope my occasional rants aren't too annoying.