Everyone has their reasons for doing this but whether this hobby is right I feel is situationally dependent. Don’t get me wrong, sex is great and the thrill is amazing. It is when your uncontrolled pursuit negatively affects aspects of your life that you should step back and re-evaluate.
To me, this hobby will always be a contained fantasy. It starts when you pay and ends when the door shuts behind you.
I can’t say if I can quit this hobby, honestly speaking. But I hope I do.
As for what made me start hobbying.
I use to be a 300 pound dude and had no luck with women. Absolutely fucking zero. You know how cold zero is? Zero girls, zero money, zero friends etc. Extremely low confidence, fat as shit, failing grades, high social anxiety, never had a girlfriend hence virgin...you name it. I was a fucking poster boy of a loser. I would say that I never blamed society or anyone for my shit. I have the mindset that I have only myself to blame for not having the courage and not putting in the effort to overcome.
Anyway, a newfound friend tells me about this one day and asks me to join him after I indulged my embarrassing secret of being a virgin. I declined but ended up doing it solo a few months later. Truth be told, I felt like shit doing it but I couldn’t stop myself. All the jerk off sessions couldn’t compare. So I swirled into a year long binge of 1 to 3x a week. Needless to say, I was addicted. At the time, it was the only avenue for me where I was getting female attention.
Mid way in to my binge, I decided to fuck this shit. Depressing sex is still depressing. I want the real thing. I made changes in my life. Lost 80lbs and still exercising, started kicking ass in my career after graduating, hit up bars with friends to chat up girls etc etc. I started meeting people and making friends. I got some victories along the way but I was still single and still hitting up the AMP. I was sad but still motivated. What kept my head above the water was the fear of knowing what rock bottom looks like.
The last portion of my binge started when I graduated from hitting cheap spas to the real nice ones in the city.
My first thought...”holy fuck I wasted so much fucking money at the cheap places. I didn’t know! I simply DID NOT KNOW!”(I wanted to get better but I’m a bit of a hedonist.)
So my addiction was starting to seriously impact my finances but never to a point where I would be out in the streets or starving.
What happened next? I experienced goddam AMP heaven. My all time favorite provider and I will never peak her. Long story short, free sessions outside/inside. Crazy, screaming, sweating, and forever escalating sex. She was the fucking best sex I had and delivered every time.(You can see the review I wrote. It should be something like Jessica Grace Spa.)
I started to gain feelings for her since I often took advantage of the benefits she was giving me. It was feeling too real but I kept it going until she left. Might as well enjoy myself while it lasts. Of course, there was a minor heartbreak at the end but it’s what I pay for for getting too involved in the wrong thing.
After her, I decided to try to quit. The hobby took its financial toll and, honestly, took away motivation to find a real women. Also, the thrill disappeared for me after Jessica. Eh, downsides of hitting jackpot.
I had a lot of fun doing this. My only regret is the money. For mongers that are trying to reach a better place, I hope you read some of the comments in this thread. They are insightful and helpful. I hope you find yourself in a better place. You will be seriously surprised to see what is out there for you but I do understand it can be very difficult to see it at times.
My parting advice to hobbyist. Be positive. Seriously. Walk in the room be positive and just have fun with them. Make them laugh and get to know them a little. Some of them won’t reciprocate but when they do, GOD the sessions are so much better. If it’s a bad session, walk it off. It comes with the hobby. Finally, do not forget that it is only a fantasy. How you want to use that fantasy is up to you but it’s still a fantasy.
Anyway, this was a good time killer and thanks for reading. Stay safe out there gents.