i was gonna leave a review about erika myself but i guess i don't have to because my experience was very similar to yours. she was professional, beautiful, and very compatible with me. she deserves all the compliments i've seen from others.
personal rambling ahead...i intended for erika to be my last ever since a) she is my ATF (for the reasons mentioned above) and i wanted to go out on a high note b) her high price point mentally precluded me from seeing her again, hence allowing for a nice, clean break. well...i ended up taking another session with her colleague (who was on the opposite end of the price spectrum) so that mental justification is already out the window. but i reckon that's actually my silver lining because it made me realize what i have on hand is an addiction that will only consume more of the life i spend outside of it. i've been told the best way to quit any kind of addiction is cold turkey and not feel compelled to do so when you're feeling "on top". hence i'm not even leaving a full-fledged post before i get out.
i've seen extremely elaborate, entertaining writeups by some of the prolific users on here and wondered what those folks are like irl. would they be just as funny and charismatic, or would i see very different personas? fwiw, i've been taking measures to write as differently from my normal prose as possible, not only to avoid potentially being made out (not that i'm a big shot in any way in a city full of them), but also because i was never proud of having this hobby that i'd spend time chronicling my pursuits and regaling others. i've been entranced nevertheless by how active this community was at exchanging information and keeping it cohesive and "constructive" in order to help each other feel better, if only for a couple hours max at a time. it's a world i didn't know anything about until a few years ago, and i go out knowing almost nothing about my "neighbors" except that a whole lot more people make it part of their lives than i expected. i guess that's still enough knowledge to realize just how fundamental our sexual urges are, how challenging it is to keep them at a healthy level and how, despite all that horniness guiding our decisions, i've encountered far more good people on here than bad.
for someone whom you can obviously see has been morally conflicted about partaking in this hobby, i found my first time to be surprisingly guilt-free. i might even say the session (i kinda lucked out because it was with one of the now-legends who had just started out) was therapeutic and even empowering during a particularly rough patch. but now...i'm not even sure how to feel as i find myself lying next to strangers and smiling at them all exhausted...and there goes another day. that numbness pushing against the tides of time scares me more than any ethical qualms i've harbored over the years. i really don't judge anyone else for their life choices and more power to those who find this to be a positive outlet, but i feel that this is the time - not necessarily the best but quite possibly the last decent one - for me to get out before my sexual wants and needs jeopardize my other priorities in life.
thanks for the ride, fellas.
