Because im nervous about my first time
There is nothing wrong with being nervous the first time. I got very fortunate because my first experience over 20 years ago with AMP’s was with a co worker who knew the ins and outs because he travelled up and down the eastern seaboard for work. He basically coached me for a couple days before hand on what/what not to say and do, and after the initial visit and the shock factor wearing off as to what just happened you get REALLY comfortable, REALLY quick (which is a blessing and a curse). Really good because the nerves don’t exist anymore. Really bad because you can’t ever let your guard down (now that rule pertains more to Indy’s and Escorts than AMP’s but I digress).
After my initial AMP visit I branched into other stuff like gentleman’s clubs where extras are offered (South Florida is hell on the wallet for those) and escorts. Strip clubs felt like AMP’s so that never bothered me, but the first time I visited an escort at a shady ass motel late at nite I got those same butterflies I had before my initial AMP visit. Point is the nerves are going to kick in, for most it’s non negotiable. Once you pop your cherry it’s going to be VERY easy to go back without blinking an eye, trust me on that.
And to reiterate what someone else said previously if you’re self conscious about yourself don’t be. I doubt you’re going to offer something these girls haven’t seen before, and even if you did your pro’s (and apparently you know who those are) aren’t going to bat an eye. Whatever you’re worried about physically (if that’s a concern) whether it’s you’re out of shape or your penis isn’t big enough I wouldn’t stress about that one bit. They’ve seen bigger guys with smaller dicks, it’s a business and they aren’t there to judge, just to get you to pop your shot and move on the next one.
In closing just enjoy the experience, don’t let it consume you, and have fun with it. Some of these girls will help you live out your fantasies and find new ones you didn’t even know you’d like (I personally never liked the idea of a PM until I got one, after that first time I feel incomplete without one). Stop stressing and have fun, you only live once.